Sleep at Night
Last night, I could not sleep. And it wasn't the usual rough night for me where I take a while to fall asleep and then wake up frequently throughout the night, it was that I was unable to fall asleep at all. I lay in bed for hours, trying to breathe, meditate, relax, talk to God, identify what it was that was keeping me awake. I still could not feel comfortable and get relaxed enough for my mind to let go. This has not been such an issue for me since the time I was in the midst of high levels of trauma. I am currently in the opposite of trauma, and maybe that is the problem. I am typing this from the deck of a 4 million dollar house boat in one of the most beautiful, serene places in the world. I am dating a wonderful man who is helping make these experiences happen for me. I am surrounded by people who are motivated, ambitious, successful, and are making dreams come true for themselves and others. I am inspired and feeling capable that I am now and will become just as successful