A+
Today is a congratulations to me kind of day. I've conquered some major hurdles, and I am giving myself a well-deserved pat on the back, gold star on my forehead, and big, fat A+ on my report card. Firstly, I just mailed the last payment of a massive debt that has been weighing on me for the last four years. Hallelujah! Nextly--and this is the biggest "yay me!" of the year--I have a man in my life who is more broken and shattered than nearly anyone I have ever known, and... I'm not in love with him! Ha ha haaaa! Whoopeeeee! Yahoooooo! I'm being completely serious. Do you understand what a mountain this is for me to conquer? I didn't realize how proud I should be of myself until I was talking to a girlfriend the other day about her problems. Suddenly, I realized I had been able to maintain a vulnerable and close relationship with this man while also staying peacefully in my own space. THAT IS A HUGE DEAL FOR ME. I didn't feel responsible to try and control