Caroling
Usually, I sing because I'm happy. I sing because I'm feeling so light and carefree and joyful that the feeling bursts out of me and I annoy my kids by bouncing around the house and belting out a Disney ballad or a popular pop song that they used to love but now will hate forever. Today, I sang because I didn't know what else to do. I don't remember the last time I had a panic attack. It's been at least two years, I think, since that full on, can't catch my breath, mind is spinning, I don't feel safe feeling took over. I don't know why it came. I mean, the world is in the middle of a pandemic, electoral chaos, division and strife galore, but my own personal world is actually going pretty dang well. I did just break up with someone, but only after a few weeks of dating. I am still recuperating from catching the virus that has flipped the world on its head, so there's that. I guess I need to give myself a little more grace as far as realizing there are