Eternity

I haven't been able to go to the temple for a while. In Hawaii, the closest temple is a few islands away, so I only went once. Then, I had to repent of the guy I dated in Hawaii and had to stay away. I was finally able to get back there today and I got another wonderful Heavenly Father hug.

Even though most of the time my confusing is peaceful, sometimes it isn't and I need more confirmation. I stood at the veil at the end of the endowment session and thought of how my family is growing with my daughter getting married and how more of my posterity is waiting to arrive and how my ancestors are so happy for us. Then I sat in the celestial room and thanked God for all that is now and all that is coming, and I asked God what I should do next and He said, "Whatever you want, Micki, just fly." So I cried gratitude for how the real and important things are so beautifully perfect in my life and how the rest of it is also so abundant and how I am so blessed and life is so good even when it's confusing.

Whatever I want, just fly. Get as big as I want or as far as I want. Or not. He will be there for me no matter what. My kids will be just fine and they need me to be happy. If I stay, it will be great. If I go, it will be great. 

Chasing fear then chasing joy then chasing peace and finding it all in this big, messy, confusing, beautiful, abundant, eternal life.

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