Micki's Musings

Five months ago, my fiance cheated on me. Four months ago, my ex-husband overdosed and died. Next week, I'm supposed to have my whole house packed up and ready to move. Yesterday, my baby boy moved out and I came home to an empty house. Last night, the guy I'm dating told me he's interested in someone else also and doesn't know what to do. The other day, I had shooting pain going up and down my leg randomly. It was severe enough that it made me cry out. I researched it and it said something about nerves and that exercise would help. I went to the lake and swam and started my walking again. The shooting pains are gone, now. Last month, my period was a week late. I'm never more than three days off schedule. Then I had another cycle two weeks later. Then again two days later. I researched it and it said something about PCOS or thyroid issues or possibly early menopause. The main cause on every website was stress. I made an appointment with my gynecologist. I made an ap

I spent an hour today on the phone with various mortgage companies dealing with things I really don't want to deal with and jumping through seemingly silly and unnecessary bureaucratic hoops to get simple information. I still didn't get the information, but they will be mailing (snail mailing, not emailing) the documents that will outline the first steps of what we need to do. They won't be sending the information we requested, just the first steps of how to get the information we requested. Sigh. I spent the following half hour eating my feelings in the form of chocolate chips and peanut butter fudge (ie peanut butter rolled in powdered sugar). The chocolate chips were 70% cacao, so it's healthy. Sigh some more. But also, I forgave him a lot the other day. I forgave him and I actually grieved him. The last time I was at his house--and hopefully that was the very last time--I was looking for the bolt to the gun that is missing and ended up going through one of his milit